Saturday, September 29, 2007

Still tired

I really hate this whole "I don't know my body or my limits anymore" thing. I'm still tired all day long and barely moving, and just walking to the library and the pharmacy (6 blocks round trip total) this morning wore me out so badly I think I have to take a nap before work. It isn't helping that I've been working almost every day this week, and will barely get a day off this month.

On the plus side, though, I am making headway in the diet department, I've really cut down on the sugar and the snacking, have kept to my supplement routine, and the sugar cravings are starting to go away. If I can stick to my diet, I should be sugar-free or nearly so by the end of October.

I've decided to return to the low Glycemic Index diet, it has been the easiest to stick to, and seems to work very well for me. By default, O will be eating this way too. I'm not making 8 meals a day, and I can't afford all the meat and dairy he would like to eat (and neither can his waist size!)

So far today, my eating hasn't been fantastic, I had trouble eating this morning and didn't have breakfast until 2:30pm, had a fried egg sandwich on toast, and an orange. I had to eat, finally, the iron pill was eating it's way through my stomach, ouch! I'm packing a lunch and snack to eat at the stadium tonight, so I don't have to eat the crap we have there (even worse than the arena, my best option is probably a hot dog, no where to buy juice, fruit, or anything remotely vegetable-like, but every stall serves chocolate bars and pizza!) Will likely pack a ham sandwich (with the sprouts I've been sprouting but not eating!), some more fruit, maybe the pasta from the freezer, and a small salad.

Tomorrow is tv football day, but I'm not buying chips or nachos. I'm going to make a healthy dip platter for dinner, red pepper hummus, homemade ranch, peanut sauce and some white bean-roasted garlic dip, with raw veggies and pita bread.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

184 pounds

I've lost a bit this week, and I'm pre-menstrual, so I'll be losing a bit more next week, if I can keep this going. I've really stuck to the supplement routine for a few days now, and it's already having some results.

Tomorrow I will start on a low-GI diet again, following this plan, as well as sticking to my supplement plan, doing yoga at least 4 days a week, and walking daily. Hopefully by this time next week, I will be able to post a slightly larger weight loss, and that I'm feeling much better in general.

That said, I'm being a total pig today, it's football Sunday, and O is feeling a little needy, so we're having a Mommy-Son day, eating chips and pop and watching Da Bears.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Still flat on my ass

I'm still totally zonked out, fatigued, sleeping 12 hours a day, barely have any muscle strength. I don't know if this is cumulative fatigue from the extra exercise I've been doing, a result of the day from hell I had at work on Wednesday, or if my thyroid needs to be rechecked.

If I'm still totally zonked out by Monday, I'll call to get the blood test ordered. But given how my muscles feel, I think this is cumulative fatigue, I've just pushed myself too far again. I have to back down, do some very gentle exercising, and take a good look at my diet.

Despite all my resolutions, I'm still eating worse than crappy. Still way too much junk food, sugar, pop, chips, subs, fatty meat, and general crap. I tried out the higher fat, more meat way, and, while it did help my energy level a bit (and my skin looked fantastic!), I've gained 20lbs in 2 months and dragging all that extra fat around is way too hard for me. I've got to go back to what I know works for me, and work on sticking to a no-sugar diet.

So, work for the week:
Cut out sugar (yeah, I'm going to be a total bitch for a while)
Follow supplement regimen

I'm going to look into doing a full Candida cure in a month or two, when I can afford it.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Resting a bit

Haven't posted for a few days. I really did burn myself out this time, have to slow down on the exercise plans, never even did get around to getting out to the Y yet this month, it was just all the walking I was doing.

It never fails to catch me by surprise, even after all these years with hypo and all the other stuff I've got going on. I feel good, so I want to exercise more, the more I exercise, the better I feel, so I do even more, and then, Whammo! I'm on my ass for a few days. When will I learn?

So, still taking things easy today. Work last night was hell and I must have walked/jogged the length of the arena two dozen times. I've still got to go to work for a few hours, and then some grocery shopping, but mostly I will have to rest today, I didn't get much sleep last night, and will need a few naps today.

Maybe I will try to do a bit of light yoga today. It's raining out and cold, so that should keep me from wanting to go out for a long walk. The weather up till now has been gorgeous, crisp, fall weather with clear blue skies and it really sucked to be so tired and drained and not to be able to enjoy it all.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Tired, so very, very tired

I think I've burnt my body out a bit with all the walking I've been doing. I'm soooo freaking tired today. Just walking to Dairy Queen was a chore (and yes, I had a blizzard, there goes resolve #1 out the window already.)

Other than the Blizzard, I was pretty good today, had a whole wheat bagel, toasted with butter and 1 cup skim milk for breakfast. Lunch was 1/2 can onion soup, 1/2 bagel with smoked gouda melted on top, 1 pear and 1 cup orange juice. For dinner I'm having spaghetti and meatballs. For a snack later on I'll try to have some muesli and yogurt.

I've had my iron today, 1 probiotic between meals, and am about to have my 1st cup of tea. Writing out the med routine has really helped to make sure I follow it about 75% of the time. Hopefully this will get better with time.

As far as exercise goes, I haven't really done anything today, I think I really need a rest day. I'm going to try to hit the Y tomorrow with O after the library.

Weigh-in: gained 3 lbs!

I've gained 3 lbs this week! 3 lbs!!!!! Ok, so my eating has been crap, but I've been doing yoga, walking miles and miles every day! I had hoped to at least stay where I was!

Ok, this week is going to be better!!!

Goals for week:
NO JUNK FOOD!!! I really, really mean it!!!!
No snacking from the buffets and catering stuff at work!!
Plan snacks ahead of time, for when work days get out of control
Go to Y at least twice this week
Go to Yoga Club at work: Tuesday/Thursday at noon
Cut down on fat and simple carbs
Follow daily supplement routine more closely
Make full meal plan and follow it closely

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Life, as usual, gets in the way

I didn't post yesterday because I didn't seem to have a second to eat, let alone post.

Worked yesterday, a needlessly, stupidly long and hard day because of the money crunch. Now everything has to be done over and over, with someone who has no idea how I do my job looking over my shoulder constantly asking stupid questions. Wound up so busy that I didn't have time to eat between 10am and 9:30pm, except for a few pieces of cake off the dessert tray. Man did I feel crappy.

I did get a morning walk in, 45 minutes around Wolseley. The rest of the day, from the moment I walked into work was a write-off. Despite my constant pledges, I drank several glasses of coke. Even my staff were making fun of me for needing liquid caffeine, but since I hadn't eaten anything for about 8 hours, and it would be hours more before I could even grab a bowl of soup, I needed the sugar and caffeine to keep me going.

Today wasn't much better. Woke up late, had to run in to work to finish up a few things, didn't have time for breakfast. As soon as I got home from work we had to run off to the football game. Had to be there early for team pictures, and for me to work the bbq, so I grabbed a cheeseburger and coke as soon as I got there, another cheeseburger and coke a few hours later. Fantastic game, another blow-out for O's team, btw, but as soon as I got home I had to call work, again, on my freaking day off, to answer a question I'd already answered, so was too pissed off to eat. Ate a pack of Ichiban, and now all I want is a beer, or 6, and someone to yell at for a while. I certainly don't feel like having a salad and then doing some yoga (probably the best thing for me at the moment, but I'd rather a punching bag than downward dog right now!)

So, tomorrow's weigh-in is probably a moot point, I doubt I've lost any weight. Sigh, well, tomorrow is the beginning of another week!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Today's effort

I did pretty good today, no sugary crap so far, at least. I did eat Ichiban for lunch, and I'm still burping it up, grooooooss. Having perogies and steak for dinner. Didn't do the tea in the am, but am steeping it now, so should get it in tonight. Tomorrow will start with the routine I posted earlier, mucked it up a bit for today before I wrote it up, so couldn't start it yet. I hope this will help get the blood sugar/exhaustion/candida stuff in hand.

Haven't done yoga today, but did take a glorious nap while O was at football practice, and I think sleep should count as virtuous for me, given how little I actually do it.

Supplement and medication routine

So much of the stuff I have to take can't be taken with other stuff, so I'm going to have to figure out a daily routine and try to stick with it.

1st thing: synthroid
1 hour later: eat breakfast with protein and drink Pao D'arco tea
between breakfast and lunch: iron, Vitamin C, B50 and Folic Acid, take with oj and some protein (not dairy)
1 hour after lunch: probiotic
after dinner: effexor, black cohosh, cal-mag, drink 2nd cup Pao D'arco tea
1 hour before bed: 1tsp psyllium seed husks

Eat 3 meals and 3 snacks per day, with protein at each meal.
Do not drink tea or soda.
No white flour products.
No refined sugar products.

I'm glad I blog!

If I hadn't read yesterday's post, I wouldn't have remembered what I had planned for today! Yoinks! My mind is going faster than my ass is growing!

Went for a lovely long walk this morning. Ignored work stuff completely. I'm not supposed to be working too many hours when the restaurant isn't open, ok fine, but then why do they call me with problems every time I do take the day off, like I'm supposed to!?! Yeesh. Went to Vita Health and picked up some more Pao D'arco tea, psyllium seed husks (for to make with the movements, so to speak, since I started taking the iron pills) and some fermented milk probiotic drink I'm trying out. It's freaking pricey so it had better be good!

Haven't eaten breakfast yet, except for a fruit leather before the walk. I'm really going to have to reset my digestive system, I'm not hungry, then I'm ravenous, then I'm too nauseous to eat, all in the space of a few minutes.

I feel like having tea and toast for breakfast, but I'm having a sandwich for lunch, and soup and bread for dinner, so I should force myself to eat oatmeal like a good girl. Will do some yoga later on today, I'd like to try a sun salute flow on the Shiva Rea dvd.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Wednesday not much better

Worked all day, from 8am, not a happy time for me, I'm used to going to sleep around 6, so getting up at the same time is a huge shock to my system. I managed to get a bit of breakfast in before leaving for work at 7:30am, but didn't get anything else to eat until almost 2pm, then just a crappy, fries and appetizer plate from the kitchen, chugged a bunch of cola to keep going, again, had a foot-long sub from Subway (1/2 for a late lunch, and 1/2 for dinner a few hours later), bought the largest size cola cup, and drank a full refill. No surprise I've been gassy and nauseous all day.

Took a walk to Shoppers to buy a new set of headphones for my nightly walks, but wound up buying freaking Doritos and some chocolate covered almonds and I ate the whole damn bag of Doritos, I feel like a fucking pig!

I did get in quite a bit of exercise today, what with all the walking, lifting, hauling and stacking I did today at work, plus walking to and from work and doing some yoga, but the doritos and chocolate just nullifies the whole thing. Plus my blood sugar is totally out of whack again, grrr.

Tomorrow I'll make some veggie soup and fresh bread, and a chopped salad and start all over again. Long walk in the morning, I need to go to the Village to buy Pao D'arco tea, so I'll take a very long walk all over, and pick up groceries while I'm out. Then a tuna sandwich and some fruit for lunch, do a yoga dvd after later in the afternoon, take a nap, prep dinner and try to drag O out to the cafe bookstore for some goodies and maybe a new (to us) book.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Tuesday, sigh

I don't know what's up with my sleeping lately, for days now I've been falling asleep really, really late, like 2-4am, waking up at 6 or 7 am, can't get back to sleep until 9 or 10, then sleeping well into the afternoon. I feel a bit like a creature of the night at the moment, bleh bleh.

Did a little grocery shop today, so I had bread and butter to have toast, and a glass of milk. Ok, so I caved in and also bought a bag of cookies and had 3 goodie rings with breakfast too, I'm only human (and what a lot of human I will be if I keep eating goodie rings for breakfast!)

I'm planning on doing a yoga dvd or going to the Y at 6:30 for the studio cycle class (spinning for those who don't want to pay for the tm name,) and also doing a lot of cleaning. Got enough energy last night to finally mop the kitchen floor, today I've got to do the playroom!

Monday, September 10, 2007

Cue the Rocky theme music

I've been doing pretty good lately exercise-wise, lots of walking at least. My diet still ain't all that great, mostly because I've been working so much lately.

I walked a whole lot yesterday, walked up the ramp at the stadium, then all over the west side upper deck, down the ramp again, and around the entire stadium. Walked home from the stadium, about 1.5-2 miles, then went for a pre-bedtime walk for 1/2 hour. Added to all the walking and hauling I did on Saturday too, it adds up to quite a bit.

The food choices at the stadium, however, are pretty weak, I had oatmeal for breakfast, then went for about 6 hours before I could eat again, had a cheeseburger and a chocolate bar for lunch and a cup of tea with cream and sugar. Had a can of tomato soup with cream for a snack, then made fried rice with eggs and almonds for dinner. Had another massive sugar craving and ate creamed sugar and butter again, YUCK! It's soooo gross, I have to stop doing that!

Today, so far, I've walked to and from work, had oatmeal with cream and sugar for breakfast, tea with cream and sugar, an oatmeal cookie and a cranberry muffin for lunch at work, some homemade chicken noodle soup (broad noodles and my chicken broth,) roast chicken with fried rice for dinner, and yogurt and muesli for bedtime snack.

It's totally wet, cold and crappy out, and my shoes have a hole in the bottom, side and top, so I didn't go out for my night-time walk. Didn't do the yoga dvd either, but I did make a space in my room for my yoga mat and will do some yoga or stretching before bed tonight.

Tomorrow I will either go to the Y for studio cycle at noon, or do a yoga dvd, and do some serious cleaning in the playroom, kitchen and storage room. For food, oatmeal or muesli for breakfast, a tuna wrap and canned soup for lunch, veggie soup or rice, beans and sausage for dinner, and fruit for snacks.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

183 lbs

I'm down 2 lbs this week, ok, but I usually drop 4 or 5 within a week when I make any changes to my diet or exercise (and then down to 1lb/week) so I'm still a little disappointed. I really want to be under 180 lbs soon, I hate being up here so close to my all-time high weight of 195.

I took my measurements yesterday, I'll try to measure every month, preferably on the 1st, or something I can easily remember.

I have been doing much more activity this month, focusing on a goal of increasing my total minutes of exercise, instead of on specific activities. It's working well, but I haven't really made any good changes in my diet yet. I'm not snacking like I was last month, but that's mostly because I just don't have the time to eat this month.

I'm going to focus for the rest of this month on eating 3 meals and 2 small snacks a day, and on eating a bit of protein and a fruit or vegetable with each meal.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Getting better

I've actually been doing pretty good this week, been walking daily, did yoga with the girls at work over lunch, and have been really cutting down on my snacking. Being broke does wonders for the figure!

I haven't been keeping track of my food intake too much, but here's todays:

breakfast: quiche lorraine, granola bar, tea with cream and sugar
lunch: veggie lasagna (it was yucky, didn't eat much), a bit of garlic toast (also yucky)
snack: chips and dip off catering table, more tea
dinner: whole wheat noodles and tomato sauce
had a total sugar fit after dinner and ate creamed butter and sugar again, at least not much of it, and I feel totally crappy again. Have got to get these cravings under control!


walked to and from work

plan for tomorrow: I'm working at the stadium, catering, so won't be walking around, or even walking the ramps, so will need to exercise before my shift, preferably the water flow yoga dvd.

tomorrow's meals:

breakfast: tea, toast and egg
lunch: tuna sandwich, canned soup and fruit
dinner: at stadium, try to eat something relatively healthy

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Yeah, well, I tried...

Crazy day at work today, crazier than even I'm used to (and I've broken up drag queen fights!)

On the up side, I was, at some points, literally running for hours (somehow every single soup spoon in the entire arena has gone missing in one week. Every one! 1000 soup spoons! How does that happen?!?!!)

On the other hand, I lived on cola, brownies and chicken fingers to get through the night. I must have drank at least a liter of coke during my shift, I did manage to go easy on the dessert tray, but didn't eat nearly enough, as usual, and feel nauseous and have a wicked headache.

I didn't do any formal exercise today, but did a bit of stretching, walked to and from work, and must have walked at least 3 or 4 miles at work today.

breakfast: oatmeal
lunch: 5 or 6 chicken fingers and 1/2 of the grossest potato wedge I've ever eaten
dinner: 1/2 slice of pork loin and a handful of french fries, from the buffet, with a small amount of fruit, and 4 small brownie portions

and, as mentioned, way too much Coke.

Tomorrow, I am working again, but only a few hours. Will try to do yoga tomorrow evening, and go for long walk. For meals I will have toast or oatmeal for breakfast, leftover curry for lunch and a frittata with salad for dinner.

Monday, September 3, 2007

Labour Day

Just barely woke up today, I crawled out of bed at almost 2pm, I don't know why I'm so tired today. I kept waking up from 8am on, but could just barely pry my eyelids open, couldn't wake up, but couldn't get any rest either, grr.

Made O a scrambled egg burrito for breakfast, I ate the scrambled egg, with cheese and green onion, but skipped the tortilla and ate 1/2 an orange.

Stretched a bit, I'm feeling really sore, not just like my muscles are tired, but like their filled with toxins, like I felt when I was extremely sick years ago before starting to treat the candida, when I had to take a 45 min hot shower before I could stand up completely. I must have really let myself go this time again, and I have a lot of work to get back to a bare minimum of health. I'm short on Pao D'arco tea until pay day, so I can only drink one cup a day, I know from experience this isn't enough, but it's better than nothing. Will need to really commit to doing daily yoga, too, to flush out the toxins in my muscles and get things flowing again. The water flow dvd I bought sounds really nice right now!

Still having trouble eating without getting nauseous, had a can of Campbell's chicken noodle soup for lunch. Ate a small bag of chips for a snack at work, walked to and from work, 45 minutes, and ate chick pea tikka curry on rice with sauteed broccoli.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Better day

I wound up sleeping most of the day, must have been pretty worn out this week, I don't know what from, though.

Ate oatmeal with cream and sugar for breakfast. Went right back to sleep and woke up too ravenous to cook, so ate a spoonful of peanut butter for lunch (I know, I know...)

Dinner was great, though, salmon, rice and a salad. Had another spoonful of peanut butter and ate a kit-kat after dinner, and ate some noodles with butter and parmesan that O made as a bedtime snack.

Went for a short walk, 30 minutes, but not much other exercise or activity. Tomorrow being the 1st day of school for us, I'm hoping to get a bit more done.

Tomorrow's plan:
breakfast-oatmeal or muesli
lunch-tuna sandwich and canned soup
dinner-chick pea curry on rice with lentil dhal, simple green salad and raita

yoga program #1
45 minute walk

Saturday, September 1, 2007

September Goals

Sharply reduce the amount of sugar in my diet
Sleep naturally
Do yoga at least 4x's/week
Walk daily
Lose 5 lbs

Feeling crappy

Well, as usual, things didn't go completely as planned today, but didn't have a total blow-out day either. I made oatmeal for breakfast, had a cheeseburger and 2 cokes at the football game, and was too tired, sunstrokey and nauseous to make dinner, so ate a pack of Mr. Noodles.

No exercise to speak of, other than vigorously cheering on O's team to their 4th in a row victory (48-0 this time, yikes!)

Plan for tomorrow:
breakfast - scrambled egg burrito for O and I
lunch - canned soup and sandwich
dinner - salmon, couscous or quinoa, and broccoli

45 min walk with Owen
yoga #1