Sunday, December 30, 2007

190 lbs!!!!

I'm already down 5 lbs this week, and before my period too! That was my goal for next month. My weight fluctuates so much that 5 lbs isn't a huge deal to drop in a week for me, but it means that I'm already 10% to my goal, before the New Year even starts! I was hoping to be able to get the big 1st week numbers, but still it shocked me, since I ate soooo badly all last week. Just goes to show how much a chocolate binge or a bottle of wine does affect my body.

I'm doing really well with the eating right now. I've learned through sooo many failed diets (well, they can't really have failed if I never made it to the end of the day...) that I need to make changes slowly. Since I've already done this successfully once, I have a lot of confidence in myself to do it again. I've already cut out the really unnecessary sugars, the pop, cookies and goodies, and sugary tea. I'm working today on starting to cut out the sugar servings I'm really dependent on, like in my oatmeal. Oatmeal isn't really the tastiest of foods, sugar makes it nice, but I'm going to learn to enjoy it without sugar. Really, I'm sure oatmeal has subtle charms that I have heretofore missed because of the sugar... it's gotta have something, right?

I didn't exercise yesterday, but I did a whole lot of housework. I'm moving back to green housekeeping, so it meant a whole lot of kneeling, scrubbing, rinsing, carrying the water bucket around to dump and refill. Not what I'd been hoping to do, physically, but if there is one thing I have learned this year, it's to listen to my body veeeeery closely.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

New Year, new goals

I'm getting back up on that horse, hope I don't break the poor thing's back, sigh. I've gained back all the weight I've managed to lose over the last 3 years, so I'm right back where I started. I am doing better now and am able to get some exercise, and do some food prep, instead of depending on convenience foods.

O has decided he wants to get on the fitness bandwagon with me, making things much easier for me. Having a buddy to kick my ass out of the house (and vice versa) helps so much, and not having to worry about what he'll be willing to eat makes my food planning and prep much smoother.

I've been slowly weaning myself off sugar this week. I don't plan on going totally sugar-free for a few months at least (summer would be the easiest time for me), but do want to cut out sugary foods and other simple carbs like chips, and eat very limited amounts of home made sweets and desserts until then.

Right now, for January, I'm working on food planning and making sure I have healthy snacks and options around to make easy work day lunches and bedtime snacks. I'm looking for some good bean dip recipes, and hope to experiment with some crackers and breads this coming month. I'm going to have a whole week straight off work (give or take a day), so I'm hoping to do lots of feed-the-freezer cooking.

For my body, I'll be aiming to do a yoga dvd at least 3 times a week, getting outside for a walk daily, climbing stairs here at the building (I'm on the 5th floor, so I'll start with doing the stairs once a day, and work up to at least 5 or 6 repeats), and playing hacky sack in my apartment (cheap winter workout!)

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Wow man!

I was soooo sick. I was so sick I didn't know how sick I was!

And I'm still sick. This is no flu. It's some sort of super-flu, a super-duper flu that makes bird flu look like bunny flu! Crap I was sick!

And now, thanks to sleeping 14 hours a day, only being able to eat simple starch foods like toast and noodles, and the crappy food available at work, I've put back on all the weight it took me 3 years to lose! Arrrggghhhh!

Ok, the plan for now:

I've given up on the idea of the gym for this year, at least. I've gone once in the last month, did 15 minutes on the bike and a light arm weight workout and was bed-ridden for 2 days afterward! I don't know if it's because I'm still sick, or because the weight I put back on is putting that much more of a strain on me, but I'm going to have to go slow, no matter what.

My plan is to combine fitness with housework, kill two birds with one stone. So I'm doing the whole green housekeeping thing, cleaning the kitchen and bathroom with baking soda and vinegar, getting down on my knees and scrubbing and rinsing. Washing the walls, windows, doing small loads of laundry by hand in a bucket. My place is slowly getting back to normal, and I'm building up my fitness level while I'm at it.

Xmas is a crappy time to have to go back on a diet, but there's nothing for it. I just have to bite the bullet, get back on the diet, and no cheating! It's not just that I'm fat, I feel like crap, I feel at least 30 years older than I really am, and I'm losing large chunks of my life to sleeping and being exhausted. Xmas or not, diet, here I come.

I need to prioritize time to do yoga, as well, and to block off time to do food prep, and hope that I'm functional and capable of cooking and cleaning when I have the time to do it. I have to pack a meal for work every day, and keep high-protein foods around the office for emergencies. And I know I've been saying it for months, but no more cola or goodies at work. I need to bring in some healthy, high protein snacks to keep my blood sugar stable, so it doesn't drop halfway through the dinner rush and leave me fuzzy and looking for the pop gun.

My short-term goal is to lose 10 lbs by Jan. 1/08. I think this is reasonable, since I usually drop 5 lbs in water weight whenever I start to exercise and drop the junk food.