I was soooo sick. I was so sick I didn't know how sick I was!
And I'm still sick. This is no flu. It's some sort of super-flu, a super-duper flu that makes bird flu look like bunny flu! Crap I was sick!
And now, thanks to sleeping 14 hours a day, only being able to eat simple starch foods like toast and noodles, and the crappy food available at work, I've put back on all the weight it took me 3 years to lose! Arrrggghhhh!
Ok, the plan for now:
I've given up on the idea of the gym for this year, at least. I've gone once in the last month, did 15 minutes on the bike and a light arm weight workout and was bed-ridden for 2 days afterward! I don't know if it's because I'm still sick, or because the weight I put back on is putting that much more of a strain on me, but I'm going to have to go slow, no matter what.
My plan is to combine fitness with housework, kill two birds with one stone. So I'm doing the whole green housekeeping thing, cleaning the kitchen and bathroom with baking soda and vinegar, getting down on my knees and scrubbing and rinsing. Washing the walls, windows, doing small loads of laundry by hand in a bucket. My place is slowly getting back to normal, and I'm building up my fitness level while I'm at it.
Xmas is a crappy time to have to go back on a diet, but there's nothing for it. I just have to bite the bullet, get back on the diet, and no cheating! It's not just that I'm fat, I feel like crap, I feel at least 30 years older than I really am, and I'm losing large chunks of my life to sleeping and being exhausted. Xmas or not, diet, here I come.
I need to prioritize time to do yoga, as well, and to block off time to do food prep, and hope that I'm functional and capable of cooking and cleaning when I have the time to do it. I have to pack a meal for work every day, and keep high-protein foods around the office for emergencies. And I know I've been saying it for months, but no more cola or goodies at work. I need to bring in some healthy, high protein snacks to keep my blood sugar stable, so it doesn't drop halfway through the dinner rush and leave me fuzzy and looking for the pop gun.
My short-term goal is to lose 10 lbs by Jan. 1/08. I think this is reasonable, since I usually drop 5 lbs in water weight whenever I start to exercise and drop the junk food.